Last night, I was talking to my friend late at night who lives on the other side of the country. He is 3 hours behind me, so I decided to stay up an extra 45 minutes just so that I could text him. That way he would be texting me on saturday and I would be texting him on sunday. I felt completely awesome with the idea I was going to send a text from the future. I believe this is a very acceptable reason to loose sleep. MLIA.
For the past few weeks every time i’ve gone to the bathroom, i discovered the cardboard inside of the toilet paper role is missing. I just found out why. My sister has connected about 30 cardboard tubes together and has pushed one end through my window, the other end is still in her room. We are now sending messages to each other via my hamster. MLIA
“What we do matters to us. Work may not be the most important thing in our lives or the only thing. We may work because we must, but we still want to love, to feel pride in, to respect ourselves for what we do and to make a difference.”—Sara Ann Friedman (via dolldalera) (via quote-book)
“Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you’re wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart.”—One Tree Hill (via kari-shma)
i’ve realized that school and your outside life will always clash. and you can’t always ask someone what you should do or choose when it happens. you have to decide for yourself what means more to you and what you’re willing to sacrifice. because say you make what you realize is the wrong decision, you only have yourself to blame for it. you can’t blame the person who helped you decide on it because they were seeing it from their eyes, and what they believe is right may not be right for you. everyone is capable of making their own decisions, it’s just a hell lot easier having someone to help you. i’m lucky to have such good friends that know me well enough to help me with whatever is thrown at me. i think this is starting to sound hypocritical but i guess what i mean is that these past few weeks of school and this break has really made me realize something important. i’ve been choosing what i think is more important and what i want over what is deemed more important by other people. sleep over doing work, resulting in late nights and tired days has become so routine but i don’t even mind that much because it satisfies me and in the end i still accomplish what needs to be done. this break was supposed to be about catching up on sleep, not worsening my bags/dark spots (they do exist) yet i’ve been getting home later and later and making my mom madder and madder. but i bear the yelling and i’m getting over the feeling of being tired because my days are spent doing what makes me happy. i really like watching gymnastics, even if it’s as the only manager. i like eating ice cream till i feel gross. i like watching movies two days in a row. i don’t entirely mind walking in the freezing cold at night, with the possibility of rapists, while wearing flats and no gloves. so here’s to doing what i really want (stevie in the morning then savingrace in the afternoon tomorrow) and procrastinating my hw till whenever i find time.
and on a side note, there are still some things i really wish to do, but i’m too stubborn and scared to, so i’ll just keep hoping, waiting, and wishing on 11:11.
Cause it’s always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles Cause my words get in my way I smoke the whole thing to my head And feel it wash away ‘Cause I can’t take anymore of this I want to come apart Or dig myself a little hole Inside your precious heart
“ The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they’re out in the open. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don’t have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you’re in control, you’re not.”—Meredith Grey (Grey’s Anatomy) (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)